Princess

There she sat, so narrow and sweet
her body slim and in shape
after eating very little sweets

her hair was parted and worked into
an elsa braid
her crowned jewel lay neatly on top of her head
she wished for a maid
but couldn't afford, for she was only the daughter of a lord

There she sat, so narrow and sweet,
on her canopy bed of sparkly pink
she believed in unicorns and mythical creatures
but never did she think of being a seeker

She watched harry potter both day and night
it was such an unbelievable sight
there were dragons and spiders
rummaging through the forbidden forest
like wanderers in the dark

There she sat, so narrow and sweet
with her friends of choice and
sister by blood

Her sister was no princess
for she was a knight, a girl knight may she add
who loved dragons and fire
with the mighty strength of one too
with her horse named Mulliza

Her friends were rebels
yet she was a royal
she followed all the rules hoping to rule
her father was a lord, her mother was a lady
it was a royal life
for the perfect little girl who happened to be a princess.

May 23rd 2000

Two days ago and 14 years ago was when I, Emily Loraine Calhoun, or formerly known as Tang Xiao Lu was officially adopted as a United States Citizen to the best parents, I've ever come to known, since I didn't know my birth parents. I never realized how much I could learn about where I have come from, considering I never knew or learned anything about my birth parents. Most people are considered unpopular because they were adopted, they are made fun of or bullied, but I am proud to show people where I come from. My dad, showed me the 6 month follow up interview that had to send to the Chinese adoption agency in order for me to be adopted. It was really funny, because apparently I was scared of my dad and carried a stool around so I could reach everything, Curious George, anyone? My mom was the only one in the beginning whom i was close to, my sister was unaccepting to the fact of having another sibling in the house and since i couldn't say Anna, I seemed to call her "Ah". Isn't it wonderful to look back on your life and realize the funny moments that can never be replaced? May 23rd 2000, that's a date always worth remembering.

Never

I seriously dont know why i try to help people never does it end well. i got into an argument with the guy ive liked and it was about how each of our lives suck but struggle through it. and he doesnt want to date me because he thinks i deserve better? im not trying to let it bother me but the things he told me! its sad and he doesnt think that anyone cares but i do! he doesnt share much but i dont blame him hes had a rough past. i think whats bothering me is i used to be what he looked forward to but  now.we have grown apart and he doesnt think i care.....and i dont know what to do. i do tell him im always there for him and i dont know.....life sucks.

Midnight

The clock strikes twelve
and your heart beats faster
stepping into darkness or light?

Midnight is the hour
Wonderland is here
the girl goes running
the girl goes to hide
but not in wonderland.
It's Neverland.

Her friends call her Emi,
her friends go to Wonderland,
but what's not there that's in Neverland?
Emi.

Her hair like midnight, her hair with silver streaks,
her eyes like chocolate, her eyes the color of brown
her skin a fair tone, her skin revealing her Asian looks.

The hour is midnight
and Wonderland is being wandered.

Awakening

As the sky awakes,
so does the sun, as do I.
The water glistens and creates the prettiest of views
where the mountain resides behind creating a sight of pure heart.

The purple lilacs by the waterfall
bloom onto the mountainous rocks
of reds browns and yellows
where the fern grass grows briskly through the cracks.

The songs of birds fill the air,
the branches and streams creating a rift through the day
the listening and singing of the hummingbirds
their songs falling and staying in our very ears.

The day goes on as the sky awakes,
and the sun brings me to my day.
The sun shining brightly, brighter than I've ever seen
with the rays of light boasting up my confidence,
for I have to speak.

The stream that lay by the lilacs and waterfall
rushes downward to a bed of bluebonnets.
The pretty blue catches my eye
and in the bed of bluebonnets is
where my dream dog resides.

A maltese with a pretty bow and her name be Adeline.
the stream continues with its wondrous flow,
and brings spring to a new beginning.

How I express myself

I express myself through words
pictures and fonts all around.
I'm not usually a poet but I thought I'd give it a go.

The stars are invisible here in Texas,
the darkness only hides behind the clouds.

I express myself through Disney
songs and cheer to seek a dream.
The laughter and play of each little princess
the magic of living in each fairy tale.

I express myself through my friends
that stick like glue and don't judge little Rue.
The hunger games lies in my yard and on my sister's dry erase board.

May the Odds be ever in your favor
as I express who I am.

Looking Back

Looking Back

Looking back in the past
shows what I did and viewed all at last.
The shadows sweep across my words
as they form a blob on the page.

Granting to I, as a child
listening and shouting my name.
comfort from my mother
comfort from my father
comfort from all the angels in the sky,
their white wings upon my shoulders
as I wake up to this day.

Visions of butterflies and streams
from the time I was little.
Visions of once becoming a writer.
A blessing it be to be soaring high letting you see
just how accomplished I be.

I give thanks to my sister
who's always inspired me
as well as all my friends who've grown up with me.
We all swing high on the swing
letting the breeze keeping our spirits ringing.
It is spring and my birthday is only five months away.

Looking back in the past
shows what I did and viewed all at last,
now that I'm almost sixteen.

I made this blog in 2008
never shall I say farewell.
This has expressed me in all my ways
thank goodness to this I've come so far.

Looking back in the past,
shows what I did and viewed all at last.

Me as a Dreamer

Dreaming is important and without it, nobody could express themselves. I myself am a dreamer. There will never be a time you don't see me dreaming. I express myself through dreaming.

Last night, I dreamed of being in the Hunger Games Forest that Katniss lives just outside the boundaries from and I was looking for people. However, not victors. Instead I was looking for Disney characters. Totally a mix of how to express myself. My favorite movies are Disney related and then the Hunger Games and Catching Fire.

 I am a sweet girl and my favorite was when I saw Disney's Tangled... Rapunzel and Eugene by the pond that I used to go when I was little and they were singing "I see the light."

I looked down at my clothes. The usual, a pair of jeans and boots with a cute lace top and a hat. I walked through the forest and let my boots crunch with the leaves that fell onto the damp dirt. It is Spring.

Love is an open door because I know who my destiny guy is...just does he know who he is? His footprints are invisible. My looks rage on. He's out there, what does he think? I guess I'll just let it go.....

The cold never bothered me anyways.............

Picture This...

Life is an open book and a glance towards the futre is just unbearable. As most know by now, im moving to washington state with my parents. im both looking forward to it but im also really sad, so this is a shoutout to all my friends especially the guy that will someday follow my dream with me.....you know who you are  i also want you to not forget me so picture the place you know about seattle and then myself there. Looking out a window in a room with turquioze white silver and pops of color with my journal and listening to imagine dragons...becauze this is my time and my life.

Update!

I go back and read some of my posts and I feel stupid for ever putting anything like that. Like for example, my dream of living by the ocean? Okay, interesting I must say. That is to come true in a couple of months when I move to Washington State. I sware I wish I was still first chair, but dude high school is difficult, and I really want to move up in chairs, maybe all get my chance this time around. Professional Communications can be boring, and right now that's where I am....

I have been fangirling alot lately about Imagine Dragons and other stuff, have I turned into a fan girl fanactic? More  so, I think Imagine Dragons is totally amazing!!! And i missed the concert, how silly of me to not think of getting tickets. I even had a dream about going to see it, there were lights everywhere of every different color and tossing and turning in the air of the dragons themselves! could it not be more cool? could it not be more perfect?

I write stories for a living now, maybe one day I'll publish them. They are pretty good and I have found a new writing style. I also have found how much I love photography, I will have to get out more and start taking pictures more often so I can seek my new hidden talent locked up in my head all these years.. 15 and  loving it! No matter how bad high school may be, I couldn't live without my best friends, Megan Gallop and Andrew Paul. Thanks so much guyss! :)

The Girl with the Hat Update!

To anyone that was reading my story on this blog, I took it down due to reasons that people were commenting hatred on it. I will post it all on here when I'm done though!