May 23rd 2000

Two days ago and 14 years ago was when I, Emily Loraine Calhoun, or formerly known as Tang Xiao Lu was officially adopted as a United States Citizen to the best parents, I've ever come to known, since I didn't know my birth parents. I never realized how much I could learn about where I have come from, considering I never knew or learned anything about my birth parents. Most people are considered unpopular because they were adopted, they are made fun of or bullied, but I am proud to show people where I come from. My dad, showed me the 6 month follow up interview that had to send to the Chinese adoption agency in order for me to be adopted. It was really funny, because apparently I was scared of my dad and carried a stool around so I could reach everything, Curious George, anyone? My mom was the only one in the beginning whom i was close to, my sister was unaccepting to the fact of having another sibling in the house and since i couldn't say Anna, I seemed to call her "Ah". Isn't it wonderful to look back on your life and realize the funny moments that can never be replaced? May 23rd 2000, that's a date always worth remembering.

Never

I seriously dont know why i try to help people never does it end well. i got into an argument with the guy ive liked and it was about how each of our lives suck but struggle through it. and he doesnt want to date me because he thinks i deserve better? im not trying to let it bother me but the things he told me! its sad and he doesnt think that anyone cares but i do! he doesnt share much but i dont blame him hes had a rough past. i think whats bothering me is i used to be what he looked forward to but  now.we have grown apart and he doesnt think i care.....and i dont know what to do. i do tell him im always there for him and i dont know.....life sucks.